I'm Tired... ( inspired by the song "Tired" by kelly price)

Im Tired
tired of the things life gives me
im tired
tired of the way people treat me
im tired
tired of the games i have to play
im tired
tired of my heart being lead astray
im tired
tired of waiting for what  love gives
im tired
tired of discovering what new pain is
im tired
tired of just giving me all
im tired
so tired i dont want to exist at all
im tired
tired of wearing the cape around my neck
im tired
tired of no one hearing the shouts and screams
im tired
tired of those who cant see the human in me
im tired
tired of mainting my peace and sanity
im tired
tired of doing right through some one else's wrongs
im tired
tired of rebuilding my soul, to just move on
im tired
tired of shots taken at my pride
im tired
so tired i just cant sleep at night
im tired
tired of the wars and the killings
im tired
tired of people and there believings
im tired
tired of peoples surface insecurities
im tired
tired of those who refuse to believe that this is real life, not somebodies day dream
im tired
tired of my bank accounts steady fall
im tired
tired of those who refuse to call, on the one who can change us all
im tired
so tired that i dont see my own self worth
im tired
tired of writing these sad words
im tired
tired that im feeling my heart fade
im tired
tired on waiting on the dawn of the coming age....
IM TIRED !

Reality is...

I'm trapped inside this reality

where i'm not the norm

forced to run and hide and just comply

for fear that i may lose my life

forced to live your way

having to agree with what you say

all because my feelings dont obey the message that your "good book" conveys

I am he this is true

i function as the best of you can do

i sleep, eat, and breath the same way you do

yet im still outcasted to the likes of you

inside you dont know how i hide

you dont know the internal tears ive cried

and the guilt, the shame, the fear i have to swallow deep down

just so i can wear that crown

you see in your world your free

you speak your mind

you drink you wine

you party freely and have a good time

as i continue to lurk in the shadows deep in the out skirts of your world

just to live out who i am

just to be who i was put here to be

i guess one day in time our worlds will collide

and from there on non of us shall hide

and the friend ship between me and you shall die

because then shall start the battle where i will fight you to save my life

where i will fight you to stand for whats right

where i shall fight you so that i can begin to live freely with brave might !

till then my friend continue to pray on the meek,

for the day will come it shall be the meek you will seek....

Long Distance in Time.....

right now im longing for your touch

wishing i had that kiss that greeted me nightly

wishing i could stare into those beautiful soft eyes

and just forget the pains of the world exist

im thinking of those times we use to share

the walks, the talks, the meals, the sex deals

everything that made "us" fantastically "real"

everything that made us what we are and yet what we aren't

but there's this space between us

a long distance that no human can control

the space where history is made

the space where hot becomes cold

in this space is where love can grow to unfold

into something so magical, so beautiful, a grand story to be told

im missing the nights laying under the stars

and im missing the heavenly sensation of my lips to yours

i just want to be wrapped around you so tightly

so that i can never let you go

so that you will always know that "my heart" is "your home"

but the reality still exist !

the long distance is what makes this impossible

the long distance is causing me to act illogical

because its keeping me away from you and the pain i have to swallow

yet every second i feel you closer and closer to my soul...

so until the day comes when we cross paths for the first time

until the day comes when i first fall in love with the first glance of your smile

until the day comes when your warmth becomes intertwined with mine

and the long distance found in time shall no longer divide

i'll hold these non-existent memories in my mind

so the day when my heart once again for the very first time becomes yours

and your heart becomes mine,

i can fill in each blank in my non-existent memories with the picture of your smile

i will remember a real scent from your body as your close to mine

and i will know the touch of your skin how heavenly and oh so devine

and then i can hear your voice as you whisper my name by the candle light

as i finally, taste your kiss an commit it to my mind by lock and boulder

so that it will forever be there to help my body,

when it begins to grow colder and whine

damn (sigh),

long distance sure does take time to ease these pictures,

created by my mind...