Silly Bitch in Love....

Thinking back on the days
when it was you in my fall through spring
i loved you joyously
in my mind
there were no others
no side dips, sharing other peoples covers
it was just you and me, my earth partnered lover
soon i discovered
i was just another silly bitch like the others
i did all i could for you
cooked, cleaned, provided for you
just so you would know just how much i was into you...
i just did what i thought i needed to do
to make sure that you kept your love true
to me, to us, to this commitment we dreamed about
well i guess i  dreamed about
because you slowly turned
late nights out phone straight to voicemail
coming in early saying there were cars you had to trail
late night texts which made you smile
yet you couldnt have sex with me,
you dare to reject this wild child
so i slowly turned into the "Silly Bitch"
i fought harder and harder to keep you near
i did things that no one else would dare do
because i may have been growing into that silly bitch,
the silly bitch who loved you
but at the same time
i was just being that silly ass man for you
i accepted your stories even tho i knew they were lies
i accepted yo cheap ass, as i was the one who always had to buy
i accepted you telling me you loved me,
because in my mind those words made it all fine
you see this silly bitch did all he could to keep you around
i read the handbook, i wrote the codes down
keep yo man 101, i knew it backwards, forwards, sideways hell even for the "bi" ways
but yet i still wanted to be that man for you,
while you wanted to go screw everything that would let you
you brought undeniable pain to my heart
but i was silly enough to agree when you said lets give it another start
and i still ended up crying,
soul dying
pride... no more
but i still stayed yo silly bitch as you walked in the door
i still stayed yo silly bitch when you cried to me about what you were going through
and not once did you ever cry about me and you
i stayed that silly bitch when that kiss was no longer mine
i stayed that silly ass man when they were going to cut the power line
i stayed that silly ass man when you account was redder than mine
i stayed that silly ass man who accepted your lies....
so i guess thats what a silly bitch in love has to live by
heart break, betrayal, and denial
fake love, real pain, imaginary situations of things being alright
damn....
i was just so silly to keep loving you
but i hope you and your new silly bitch makes it through
because you willl never be half the man to him that i was to you......