Traces of you

there are places within these walls
that hold the memories of what use to be
only from its past to its present
these walls hold moments in its own history
these walls hold the traces of you...
the chair you use to sit in
the one you grew into
the chair where the light left you
the same chair where the darkness found you
this chair holds traces of you
there are spots all around this place
from the bed to the ground
to the scents that sometimes float in the air
they trace an outline, a figurine of what was once there
these are the traces of you
from the creeks in the night
which mimicked the sounds of your nightly flights
to the doors from the neighbors’ homes
which brought back the times, 
those times to where the door creaking wasnt mine
the flicking light wasnt mine,
when that bump in the night wasnt mine
to the window to the right where all the light shinned wasnt mine
because "physically" your trace was connected to mine
these walls hold the traces of you
from the cup to the plate to the forks i wash daily
from the floor to the ceiling to the mirror i check myself in
to the air that floats so still, so invisible yet is still seen
these walls embody the traces of you
and this wall, yes this wall so strong and pretty
this wall that will never move because before its time it was destined to be here
to serve to protect to hold the stories of what happened here
fore this wall holds the truths of the stories it wont tell
this wall holds the secrets to the gates of where burning is prevailed
the wall that merged itself so bold and brightly to become a unit
with all the elements that come together and fit themselves so nicely
the final place where history called it the finally date in its chapter
the place where history chose to stop the future so that it wont be sought after
the final place where these walls will talk amongst themselves...
this is the final place of the traces of you
for now and forever
until the day the sunlight flashes blue
and the clouds shall move down to replace the rain so it wont fall anymore
these are the elements that create the traces of you
the elements that time wont let speak anymore...

It's your love i Lack...

There's a time in this place
a distance bound by the circumstances that be
the reasons why your heart cant see me
the reasons why my skin cant touch yours
the reasons  why we are who we are
the reasons why we be where we be
if there was some magical way for me to change this space
for me to change your time
for me to make the sun and the moon align  just for us
i'd do it
if there was some magical way to put me and you in each others space
yet we're together at the same time
i'd see right to it
but alas the truth remains
we exist in the same time yet seperate lives
we breathe the same oxygen yet different variations
our hearts beat to there own tunes
yet our emotions, they link us like the distance between the tides & the moon
i feel you hear touching me
i hear your breathing as our souls grow closer with time
i am...you
and just as i become you
reality sits in
for we realize we are on opposite ends
2 places, 2 spaces, sharing the term of " friend"
lacking what our lives should have been
i guess we have to blame it on one of our past lives sins
so maybe in our future lives the curse will be lifted
and we can be together again,
but until then
we shall fall to sleep to the same moon
watch the same sunrise
as we remember in our minds,
its life's distance that keeps me from staring into those beautiful brown eyes...

"Just like the rest"

i decided to go out on a limb with you
i started off weary but that smile of yours damn it was so cute
when i thought of your face your eyes gave me a since of peace
probably way to much to be thinking after one week,
but i guess i can blame it on those words you said to me
you know the "damn your soul reminds me of me" routine
where a guy says something that instantly makes your heart weak
that prey on the meek line, so to speak
our first full convo it lasted for hours
and from that time this guy thought maybe you could officially be his flower
especially telling me how you love to keep it real
the world will know how you feel
and me and you, the electric connection,
made it possible for us to decide that we needed a round two to this session
or should i say lesson because i was soon to learn
that you're just like the rest
its amazing how we have close to the same background
grew up in damn near the same town
and were searching for love, because it was time for it to be found
yet i was soon to learn how i would drown
because what i was searching for, you already had to adore
but that comes later on,  because right now this man is so not scorn
communication was on the rise but slowly fell
text messages with two way streets slowly became this one lane closed
and i.... i kept pushing on because you told me that this couldn't be wrong
and you told me that you could feel this bond
and you made me feel as if i was your forever in a dream
truth is i was suppose to be a fuck that never ended up even happening
good thing i have morals, to bad yours became unseen
i honestly don't know what to say
i mean is this my life ???
is this treatment OK ???
i cant seem to grasp as to why you would lead me on this way,
i guess i was suppose to be that good Ole side line hoe
seeing as how you're cute and all
and how any of these guys will drop there draws just to say they slept with you
but i was trying to get to you know mentally and emotionally which would've lead to the physical
but obviously that wasn't in your plan, you probably thought i was just a "fan"
you see, you became so see thru
so i knew the details of your game before you could even think about it
i mean THINK about it
i told you i've meet the best of your group before
you smile like the rest of them
talk like the rest of them
move like the rest of them
kiss like the rest of them
lie like the rest of them
hell slowly almost made a part of me die like the rest of them
yet you claim you are so different
and for a while i thought you were
had me fooled,
here i am twice removed
because you just wanted to make this man your coming of a new age fool
but sorry, i don't do the tick mark on the wall, walking around with your stamp on my head thing
just to say oh yeah i been with that
because i thought you were more than that
the THAT that my already completed life wanted to add its completion
but oh well, i will take it as it was
we had good times ( in my mind) our moments were fun
oh i like how you popped up with a new him on your arm
but i already knew that was coming
how, because i already have experienced your type time and time and TIME again....
but its ok my search wont end
i just hate that it wasn't you who could bring me to where life begins again with this love and happiness sin
but just like the rest
i'm wishing you the absolute best
oh yes p.s.
DO NOT come knocking on this door again
your access !! officially denied,
don't believe me ??
just go ask him, and him and defiantly him
because just like you will, they all came back for a second try
so here is your ticket now homeboy, with your scripted words, go stand in line
because i truly ain't got the time
i'm on the search for my future
so to you and your kind, BYE BYE....