ya average "human Being"

This is something i wrote a long while ago. just thought id start posting things on my blog

there's this pain im sworn to live with
an aching, a curse, a punishment from men before me
I am "lonely"
i live my life just as the rest of you do
i push myself to limits far beyond you
just so that i can place 10 steps behind you
yet still i have no love thats true
so what is it i do to you ?
why is it you persecute me?
why deny me? why not just try me and you will see
that im just ya average human being
i speak like you do
i cry to the same sad tunes
i breathe to the best of what these lungs can do
yet im still tied down by my two hands
and still able to do the work of a million men
i hurt, i yearn, i sacrifice, i digress !!
all that prove just one thing
i am just a human being
dont i deserve to feel the warmth of some ones love?
dont i deserve to be the best and enjoy the joys of my nest
where this love can manifest into great-ness
instead of fading into the grey-ness
as the days go by, as the clocks tick away
my mind wonders who will heal this wounded soldier ?
who will be my love's savior ?
because if i am to be alone
if i am to forever be bound to the walls of this single man's home
then please god let my love roam
roam free from land to land
roam from from woman to woman, man to man
from child to sea, to the heaven's and all that is inbetween
just so that the greatest love that is contained by this man,
could be the greatest love that could bring joy
to those who need it in this land.
alone i stand tall
looking in this mirror
questioning what is at fault
what is at large
what is to small
did i not truely give my all ?
i can feel this love beating in my chest
its waiting but yet its slowly wanting to finally rest
this love is emancipating itsself to be its final best,
but i fear that its best just wont be accepted by "my" crows nest.....