I'm fighting to stay alive....

I'm fighting to stay alive
putting my ear to my chest
i hear no sound
i feel no body heat
its dark where i am now
sitting folded up into a ball of pain
 a ball of fury,
a ball of hate
I'm giving up because i cant handle me
i cant stand to see me
cant stand to be me
so i sit here
letting me beat me
I'm fighting to stay alive
stabbed  in the heart by pain
kicked in the neck by the words
punched in the eye by the spirits of those who don't care
shot in the back by life itself...
I'm fighting to stay alive
I'm fighting to continue on in this new life
to see the light of the new day
to stay strong to be who i was destined to be
but the pain isn't changing
the drain is still draining
my tears are growing wider & wider & wider
I'm fighting to stay alive
in this dark trying to see the light in my own eyes
so i can once again awaken the survivor inside,
I'm fighting to change my life....